Hey, yeah whatever. BldySrw here.
Just another boring journal update thing that probably doesn't matter.Please, read EVERYTHING thoroughly, 'cause I won't be explaining myself again!!Then again, i doubt this won't be noticed, so what's the point... The End Of Drawing Has Come!
NONE of my drawings have been getting ANY
views AND NOR
comments!! NOT EVEN ONE!!! SERIOUSLY, like what da fauq!?! What do you expect outta me, huh?!?
No matter what I do, it's just not good enough! And I can see why though...they're [/mine]
all bland and worthless anyways. I don't blame ya'll, even I think my drawings are terrible too (I mean why else would I be throwing away over 50 papers of unfinished sketches? )
Every single gaud dayum time I had braindead art block, I ask for inspirational ideas in what I should draw. But no one...and I repeat...NO ONE (except only 2 people. not enough!)
has ever bothered to help!!!
I'm done...I'm soo done...!
It's not worth wasting my time and effort (and procrastination from college work junk)
into making something that NOBODY wants to see! And thus, this useless nobody will NO longer be making or posting up any new drawings on here anymore!!
That means NO more requests, NO art trades...NO nothing of the sort*!IF and ONLY IF
my art and journals get MORE views AND comments, then maybe
I'll reconsider** ...but sadly that won't be possible. For now, this is the end.
There are plenty other great artists here waaay
more talented than me...
I'm just a invisible...lonely...no good outcast (Just like in school. I'm use to it)
. I shouldn't even be called an artist.(*That does NOT mean that I'll quit drawing again [although there are others forcing me to do so], I just won't be letting others see it [except those that never gave up on me]. Sorry~)(**Minimum of NO LESS THAN 10-15 [more is better] of both views AND comments AND requests for commish from different/other people!) Leaving The Life Of DA Behind?
I've seriously been thinking about this for like the past 5 years. Now might be a good of time as any to do so. Starting next month on Christmas
, I will be going on a SIX month hiatus
from DeviantART. This isn't because of my depression, but rather I'm heading out of town yet again to Japan to visit my family. It's been exactly OVER ONE year since I last seen them (due to my Grandpa surviving a stroke)
My new laptop is too big and bulky to bring along as carry-on on the plane, therefore it is more than likely that I will not be able to have means of internet access while I'm there (my mom will be hogging over it)
. I won't be coming back home until the weekend before next college semester starts. And since this will be my [hopefully]
last and FINAL semester before [possibly]
transferring to a university, I WILL NOT be spending any time on DA.
As a matter of fact...while I am on the subject, I'm actually planning on leaving DeviantART
instead*. Everything thing I have said in this journal up to this point
is basically the reason why I'm thinking on leaving, so I won't say more. I just don't feel that I'm needed here...and there's nothing holding me back.
I've been on here too long. It's time to move on. (*This is NOT going to cause an apocalypse or a paradox of some kind [lol]...so there's nothing to worry about!) New FanCures Has Been Born...
Just last week I've come up with another group of FanCures (9-12 in total now)
and a small set of secondary optional International FanCure names. GAH!! GAUD DAYUM ETT BRAIN! *hits head with a lamp...then hammer...then tablet* QUIT MAKING STOOPID IDEAS!!
I'm already braindead enough from "trying" to come up with villians, devices, storyline and profiles, etc...STOP MAKING THIS MORE STRESSFUL THAN IT ALREADY IS (My darn brain sure does hate me so)!!!!!
I'm done making new ideas for my FanCures. My inner demons of sucking all the creativity out of me has won, hands down. I won't me working any more of them for a long while, because...well...I've lost motivation.
Just for the heck of it...(because I lost my self confidence years ago)
Here to make me a laughing stock of the fandom...*hides in shame* My List of FanCures Transformation Speeches What Is To Come Of The Alpha Gang?
To be honest, I don't know. I'm not in a mood right not to discuss anything about anyone of my GenRex OCs for a while (plus, I can't think of anything else to discuss about)
They might probably end up on hiatus for the time being...much like my FanCures and Elemental Sprites.
As for my group, GR-AlphaGang01
...I might as well have to close it down. Frankly, there hasn't been ANY activity in the group (very little to NONE!)
from NOT ONLY MYSELF but from any of the Co-Founders and Members!!! NO ONE seems to care in helping out, whether or not I ask...MANY TIMES
in supporting the group!
I'm sorry but...NO more...
And that's the last of it. The end of Nokama1993 is drawing near...(GAUD DAYUM! ART PUN *slays self*)
I'm gonna go suffocate myself in my Doctor Who body pillow. Yeah, that's right, I'm a geek and I'm muda fauqin proud of eet! [WHOVIANS RULE! ]